Soul
I want to live peacefully in my body.
Whispers from my journal. September 2023
I want to master myself, peacefully.
To put down the weapons of war, those things and ways which destroy small and important parts of me.
With ease and grace, with kindness and gentleness. With love.
Those things which keep me small. The mental chatter, the busy busy busy busy. My mind’s desire to have control when control is a fallacy.
So, meditation, let go, be present, stretch (feet and my body)
All good stuff but what is the (internal war) about?
The war in my body is all about fear.
It is about old behaviours which come from unresolved trauma.
The war in my body is metaphysically real. It is so subtle that most days I don’t really notice it. Other days, it’s like being bashed around with frying pans.
My soul says I am over this war. It can do what it likes. I am going to continue regardless.
I am going to journal, meditate, practice gratitude and all those good things which enable me to be heard.
My soul said I am never going to give up because I am not small and unworthy.
I am a soul.
My soul may have a quiet voice, but it has a mighty message.
It has a divinely guided purpose and it is meant to be free and to be heard, to do what is mine to do.
How do I put down the weapons of war?
I surrender.
And so the white flag was waved and I found myself sinking into the subject of faith.
Tara x